Back to Uni

So today is Monday and on Friday morning I am going to be getting in my car and driving myself the 50 miles back to uni. And I have to say I cannot wait. Although it means I'm going to have to get this work done and begin my degree again which is most definitely going to be a wake up after doing very little this holiday. 

Recently in my life very little has been going on. The Christmas period itself was very stressful, spending time with the family is nice and all but living on top of each other, sharing rooms at other relatives houses was way too much and I certainly couldn't handle that again. Having lived for myself for the last three months but then I got to thinking and I realised I probably haven't lived at home for this long in over a year, making it much more manageable I think.

Writing this post is also another way of delaying me doing my Latin work, I made the mistake of leaving it and now my brain has got a bit rusty over the past 3 weeks. Its either Latin or reading Frankenstein and I know what I rather would do, and what I probably should do. Also yesterday I rediscovered my guitar - I had lessons about 2 years ago and have totally forgotten everything but I thought I might teach myself this time and so far so good. I'm going to take it to uni and annoy everyone there with my awful playing!

I know this is only a short and sweet one but I could just do with a little rambling to distract myself from this Latin!!!!!

Have a great week my loves!

Lots of Love, Kate xxx

Home, but is it?

How quickly has Christmas come around? And with that the end of term, and the end of the first term at uni. Granted it is nice to have a break from the work, but to be honest, in the last two weeks of term I did very little work anyway. We had a lovely successful flat Christmas dinner on Wednesday, so much food and all the secret Santa presents were so perfect for each person it was amazing. 

I love my flatmates, there I said it, they are each individually incredible people that without them wouldn't make uni as nearly as good. 
Now I'm home without them it has dawned on me how close we have become in the past three months, and how crazy it is that back in September I didn't know them and now I am finding it really hard to survive this holiday without them. These 4 weeks are going to be really tough, it has only been two days since I left and I am already going crazy without them - most definite flat withdrawal symptoms. Also hugely feel like I am being that clingy friend as I won't leave them alone!

Saturday was very hard as everyone slowly left one by one and it felt like the last episode from Friends when they all leave all their keys on the side and walk out. Slowly everyone left until it was me and Ells left so we had a nice night in, Amalia and Kate came over and we ordered pizza, watched Friends and went to see the stars, and got to see a shooting star. When they left Elliott and I did not steal everyone else's food... and did not go a bit crazy wandering the corridor, I kept expecting someone to walk in as if they'd just gone away for the weekend but they didn't. I was very very strange and driving home I just felt very numb. 

Living with 11 other people to living with my family again is very hard, I just don't quite feel like I belong here or fit in here anymore. To be honest, I feel like I have changed and so should have everything at home and it hasn't. They have their own lives and their own things to be getting on with which is fine and everything but I don't know where my place is, and almost as if the last 3 months never happened, like I've returned from another trip on my gap year. I know I will get used to it and it will just take time, I mean I have to, but to begin with, it is a challenge that I will have to deal with.

Miss them all so much,

Have a great week my loves!

Lots of Love, Kate xxx

Affected

I can't believe I have one week left at Uni until we break up for the Christmas holidays. It's crazy how fast the time goes and although I love everyone here to bits and it's going to break my heart having to be away from them all for a month. Yet last night was the first night I well and truly didn't want to be here. While most people were getting dressed up and drunk to go out I couldn't go because of my stupid illness. The SU is shit at the best of times and apparently only good when drunk - but I would never know that!! And I don't want to go out like that and be the only vaguely sober one. I never thought not drinking would ever bother or affect me. But last night is really and truly the first time it ever has and I hated it. I was so angry that I would be missing out and so pissed off that once again I was left behind because of this stupid pancreatitis and I don't want anyone else to treat me different or stay in with me or anything like that. I don't want to ruin anyone else's night. I'm just putting the thought and the wish out there that I hope I won't get so upset over it as obviously there is nothing I can do about it except get over it. 

Have a great week my loves!

Lots of Love, Kate xxx

Time for a catch up

Well, I did say I would try to keep you all updated on all my trips over my gap year but that seemed to fail epically after South Africa! So I'll just do a quick recap and then catch you all up on my time so far at university - I can't believe I've been there for just six weeks now, it feels like so much longer but I have met the most amazing group of people in my flatmates.

Right, after South Africa I went to New Zealand and although it was amazing scenery, brilliant places and it was lovely to see my family, it was most defiantly the loneliest trip I went on. I was in this tiny little town called Picton two days into arriving and I felt the loneliest I have ever been, it was horrific. Luckily the end of the trip from Queenstown onwards it was better as I got to meet some lovely people. 

After two weeks of being at home I then headed off to Thailand with the famalam which was great - boiling hot, crazy colours and very friendly people, but I have discovered Elephant riding is not for me - it is definitely one of the most uncomfortable things I have ever done. 

Then I was literally home for two days before heading off on my last trip to the States. It was absolutely incredible. I started off in New York before heading to Boston, then into Canada - Quebec, Montreal, Toronto, Ohio then finishing in Chicago. The people I met were all really lovely, and I got to know lots of very funny Australians. I think the best moments may have been standing in a glass box over the Chicago skyline, flying in a helicopter over Niagara Falls or getting drenched in grade 5 rapids on the St Lawrence river. It was an epic trip! 


That was basically it for the trips in a very quick run down.

Right, to uni, at the end of September I headed off on the biggest adventure of all time, and probably the one I was the most terrified of, going to uni. I was absolutely petrified about moving to Egham, but it was and still is awesome, all down to the fact I have the most amazing and downright crazy family there! Even though I have only known these nutters for a few weeks, I feel like I have known them forever. I cannot wait to get back there to see them all. 

That's it for now,

I'll try to catch up again soon

Have a great week my loves!

Lots of Love, Kate xxx

Back

I can't believe it has been nearly 4 weeks already that I have been back from South Africa and now, in three days, I am going to be flying the other side of the world to New Zealand. Once again I am very very nervous but slightly excited, but also looking forward to seeing my little cousins. The flight is going to be awful, 30 hours with two plane changes, urgh, I am going to be so tired, greasy and gross. I am going on a Stray Bus tour which should be good but I really hope there are some nice friendly people there, and ones who don't want to go out drinking every night, I guess that is what I am most nervous about. Anyway, I'll next update you when I get there.

Have a great week my loves!

Lots of Love, Kate xxx